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Sunday, May 16, 2004 time: 2:19pm Post #252 Wow. Prom was so much freaken fun. I ahd a total blast, and it was jsut hella sweet. My day yesterday was crazy. woke up at 10, and then i was going non stop till prom. Had to go to aquasox, Wash the durango, get my corsage, pull money from the bank, and a buch of other stuff. Oh, and that window that was broke, i cleaned it all up and cut my hands up. After i got all my stuff together, and took a shower, i headed to mattys house, cause all the guys were getting ready together. WE played Dr mario, then went to QFC for meat. I went to pick up britt at about 5:30. She looked amazing. I was trying to think of how to say she looked hot, without making an aquard situation because her parents and brother were right there. Well then we went back to matts house to take the endless pictures. Wasnt too bad, and we wernt there forever. We caught a frog. After we did the flower stuff, we all piled into the cars, and went to dinner. All in all a good time there. Food was filling, and not to bad on the wallet ;). Mike tannaberg was there, along with lauren sayes. Fun seeing those guys. I got the seafood fettachini. I was pretty full when i got it though, so i picked out all the meat, then filled up on pasta. Went for a walk on the dock, then it was off to the dance. No one was there when we showed up. Hella cool. Se we got our pictures out of the way, and check this out. You ready? Will tinkum is in one of our pictures. 3 poses, and will is in the 1st. Im sooo flippen excited to see them. So yah, after we got done with that, we went to the dance floor, which was full. We took 2 breaks all night, and they were 5 mins each. We danced the entire freaken time, and that was so much fun, because i havent done that all year. Woo hoo. That was actualy probably the highlight. After the dance, we went to matts house, because we decided not to go to mine becuase of the weather. so no hot tub. At matts we wathed some stuf movie. Cape fear. Haha made me laugh alot. Got maybe 2 hours of sleep, and everyone just passed out in the same room. Alot of fun though. No drama, no people fighting, no complants. woop Slept through church today. Steph got mad at me. sorry Steph. Ill be at sotaria tonight. Im pretty excited. I got to find some time to drop off my vest too. Sleep time. ~Steve - comment - Thursday, May 13, 2004 time: 10:30pm Post #251 Wow, i havnt posted in a while. Sorry. I know how annoying it is to go to someones site to find that they havent updated in forever... *caugh* Brit *caugh*. Anyway, it hasnt been a super evenfull week, but ill give yah a recap. Monday i had my ap test for physics, and i think it went pretty well. It will be close to see if i passed it, but i think i may have got a 3. I felt good about a good chunk of the problems, so im just gonna sit ehre with my fingers crossed. Missed track that day. Tuesday, uhhh, went to school, then track then bible study. The mock car crash was that day, and it was pretty cool. If cool is the right word to say. They did a good job of making it look realistic. Some of it was kinda funny though, like how the fire department showed up all dramitic and stuff. And JB my bible study leader was a cop who showed up and tested ty for being drunk. I guess it was really good training for those guys though, so im happy for that. Then i went to track, and i just did a few starts. Bible study later on was pretty good. Alot of off topic stuff, and we didnt really get through the lesson, but its all good. Its good to get those guys back from the musical. Anyway, now on to the bad news. Wed was crap for me. I felt pretty sick, and then i went to wesco. I was ranked number one in the 800, and i am now ranked number 10. I didnt even make finals. I sucked it up. And my coach got pretty mad at me. So now i have been able to really think about track, and all the pressure that was put on me this year to be district champ. I dont like that kinda pressure. Last year i ran track for myself, and this year i ran it for everyone else but me. It really doesnt make a difference for me if i make it to state or not. I got to go last year, and i had the entire experence. But now im expected to make it again concidering i was one of two juniors to make it to the finals at districts last year. But now that i was sick last week, and still am, im just not fast enough. i dont have the leg strength, nor the mental toughness to do what im "suppost" to do. My parents caught on to the fact that i havnt been enjoying track this year, and i explaned to them why. So now there more understanding, and are relating to me. They told me to do what i want, and to be honest, i just dont want it that bad this year. Sorry to everyone who really wanted me to make it, and do well. But at the same time, too bad for you. This is my life, and i'm going to live it for me, not you. anyway, i did qualify in both events for next week. So im going to go give it all that i have left, and see what happens. But as of now, i would much rather go to chelan at this point. Today was a good day i guess. not much to it. Went to matts at like 7, then to the beach, and thats always really nice for me. So relaxing, and away. People who go often can understand. Yes, and im sure some of you are wondering what my "love" life is going like. Britt and i are together, but not offically. Not sure if i can call her my girlfriend, but in some situations you just dont have to. We are having fun, and definalty enjoying eachother. See, when you become an offical couple, you either break up or get married. And thats kinda scary sense im going off to a differnt college (shes goen Uw, something called a "Good GPA"....Whatever that is...). Britt, your totally hella cool, and prom is going to be a total blast. Im flippen excited. Well prom is this weekend, so i will definaly post about that after. But we are getting 10 people in my hot tub. Its gonna be gangster. ~Steve - comment - Sunday, May 9, 2004 time: 3:17pm Post #250 Greetings world. I want to say that i am well, but i caugh alot still, and my nose is still runny. But i feel good, and i think thats all that matters. So yah... Friday i did absoulty nothing. Then i went to bed. Saturday morning i woke up at 5 in the morning and ate fruity pebbles. Then i realzed how early it was, and i went back to bed till 7. I had a scholorship interview at 9. Well i dont have much of a shot for it, beacuse the average cumulitive GPA for past winners is 3.85. That is more than a point higher than me, so im kinda out of the running. After that i drove home to go to practice. Just spady and i, and we did this wierd cross country kinda thing. I sucked bad, because i was caughing up flem the entire time. I tried to spit it out the side of my mouth during my sprint, but it went all up the side of my head and stuff. Pretty sick. But hot. After practice i went to mikes house, and we got reservatons for dinner. Finally. I have a gift certificate for 50 bucks there, so im a happy camper. Then i drove to britts house so i could kidnap her for the musical. It was a good show. Dropped her off, said goodnight, and went home. Then matt called, and came over, and we went to martys. Watches chapelle show standup, then mike got off work. So we went to dicks, and made predictions on the way back. I WON BABY!!! woop. 3 bucks. Cant tell you what its about unless you ask me. hahaha, its funny though. Anyway, after we got back we watched roadtrip. Then i went home. It was 3:30am. This morning i went to church, and then got my vest for pram. Stopped by cold stone to get my mom some weed icecream. ... . ....wait. Maybe it was mint. Whatev. HAPPY MOMMY'S DAY MOMMY!!! I LOVE YOU!!! Well im gonna go do something exciting now. Like walk around my house. ~Steve - comment - Friday, May 7, 2004 time: 6:25pm Post #249 Medicine makes me feel better. That and food. I just ate an hour ago, and that was my first meal of the day. Not smart, sense im trying to get better. As you can see you can comment on "my page" now. Let me know if it doesnt work, because i took the easy way out. See yah! ~Steve - comment - Friday, May 7, 2004 time: 4:48pm Post #248 Friday night, and im not sure if i want to do anything. Maybe im sick....? Wah wak. ~Steve - comment - Wednesday, May 5, 2004 time: 9:57pm Post #247 Sick. Barfy. ~Steve Tuesday, May 4, 2004 time: 8:33pm Post #246 Ick. Im not feeling very well. I think im getting sick. I dontthink its anything major, and i hope it blows over soon. Anyway, pray for me if your bored. Yesterday was pretty cool. Went to school, then track (hella hard workout) then home. Then i called up britt and we went to the beach. no one was there, but erik and ty showed up later. It was pretty chill. Then today was a super easy day at school. Guitar (slept through), Lunch, Tech Draw, and Speach. Then an easy day at track. Ahhh. But now im at home sleeping nonstop. And the back of my throat hurts. Oh well. If i could i would eat a handisnack. That would make me better. Goodnight! ~Steve Sunday, May 2, 2004 time: 11:43pm Post #245 I had a great day today. Woke up feeling pretty good, ate some cinnimon toast crunch, and of course, that was kick. Went to student leadership meeting, and we got ALOT done. The pesson was pretty good. We took a test thing, and it showed us our personality type. Im a feeler, and i used to think of that as a bad thing, but i think its kinda who i am. We talked alot about a few ideas we have that could make the youthgroup alot more personal, so i hope that we kick butt on that stuff, and that God can use it to glorify him. So yah, then i went to the main service, and pastor Kens message was very good, as usual. Erik came again, so we chilled. Then i didnt go out to lunch, but Steph gave me a ride home, and we talked about alot of things. Its really nice that her and i have become friends, and that most of the annoying feelings that used to be there arnt really anymore. It makes it alot easire to have real conversations. After i got home i was really hungry, so kaycie and i went to jack in the box and i got 7 tacos, and she got one. I am realizeing that i dont have very much time left with my family, so im going to try and spend as much time with them as i can. Kaycie got a trampoline. It takes up the entire back yard seemingly. I want to get one of those firepits my dad told me about. We would put it on the deck, and that would be PERFECT for summer nights. I have a feelings that we wont be spending long days at mattys house, so we will probably chill more at my place. Well after i got tacos, i stopped by quiznos and said hi to britt, then went home. Took a nice nap, sense i didnt get much sleep last night, and i woke up to help my mom carry food inside. Then i went to sotaria, and that kicked butt. Absouly nothing about it i would have changed. $1.00 expresso, really good, deep worship. My dad did very well, and God used him alot to touch alot of people tonight. I know i was. its funny how much of an impact having a quiet time every day can have on you. I makes me want to kick myself in the teeth for not always doing it. After Sotaria, erik and i went to the beach, and got kicked out by a cop. But he let me finish my peterson, so that was cool. Got home and talked to my parents for a little bit, then hung out online. Talked to britt alot, and thats alot of fun as always. Long live handysnacks. Well now im starting to get tired, so im gonna head off and do a quiet time, then go to bed. I hope everyone is doing well, and if you need prayer tell me. Im praying alot more now, so i hope that God listens and helps people who need it. Goodnight! ~Steve Sunday, May 2, 2004 time: 2:13am Post #244 WWU, was nice. Meet today we pretty alright. Went to drive in tonight with britt, and that was alot of fun. then we went to dennys. Grand slam. Tired, and bed. ~Steve Thursday, April 29, 2004 time: 10:27pm Post #243 I got into Western! Yay. So im gonna go there, and im going to go visit it tomorrow or somthing like that. woo hoo! Meet today. Ouch. every little thing hurt. I chafed my nipples, got 2 blisters, one on each foot. Hella gay. But i ran alright times, concidering i had a major speed workout yesterday, so im pretty happy. Andy came over and we chilled, and that was flippen sweet. We are both goen WWu, so we will have fun. Mike, you missed out :(. Gangsta ~Steve Wednesday, April 28, 2004 time: 10:25pm Post #242 Greetings. Yesterday was crazy. Went to school late. But went to zero period. Wierd. then i wrote a speach in 5 minutes. Went to speach class to find out i didnt have to give it yet. Then i went to practice, which was super easy. After that britt, mei and i went to go get bubble tea. Good stuff. Mei wooped me in chess. Yah, it was pretty bad. I also baught some really cheep yunyun or soemthing like that. I was mad cause it was strawberry. Anyway, then i got home and went to call marty, but my phone wasnt working. I asked my mom and she poited out to me that the power was out. So i did a whole lot of nothing. marty came over and we chilled. then went to bible study, where there was just as many leaders as there were kids. Matty and J B, marty and i. But it was fun, but we had to race a clock so we could have sunlight. Then we went back to my house. Marty chilled, and i petersoned. Then i went to bed, to be woken up at 10:45pm when the power came on. My computer, christmas lights, normal lights, and my speakers turned on instantly. along with a car alarm outside. Scared the flabblys outta me. I was all quiet then. FWAHAM!!! WOOP WOOP WOOOOP. But then i went to bed like a big boy. Today was normal. Physics 3 times. One before school, then before lunch, and then after lunch. But i hung out with britt during lunch, so that was tizight. Went home and slept. Tucker (my dog, not big tuck, or little brown tuck, or little miss tuck, or queen or king tuck) came and kicked me out of my bed, so i got faced. Practice was pretty fun. we did 200's in a big ol relay. My team won the second one. Woop! Then i sat at home for a while. Made pasta, except i used too much water, and i over cooked it, so it wasnt my best work. Oh well, i made it good with lots os spices, and yah. Then i played ps2, and went to youthgroup. Im not aloud to talk about it, becuase i signed a contract to be a student leader saying that i woulnt talk negitivly about the youthgroup. Sorry Evan :* And yah, then i raced to baskin robbins for free scoop night. I was the LAST one in the door. Neato. I called britt, but she is stuck mopping the floor of Quiznos. So if you go there tomorrow, make sure to tell the big boss dude that whoever did the floor should get a promotion. Mike got a date for prom! Monica hickman. I am pretty stoked for it, and i think about it alot, and how its gonna be a blast. The 4 senior guys, and matty lawy. Pfew. Kinda like homecomming 2.0. Well that is how my last few days were. Uhh, go comment and tell me something that will make me laugh. I suck at chess. :) OH AND FREAKEN WWU SHOULD HURRY UP BECAUSE I WAS SUPPOST TO HEAR BACK FROM THEM TODAY BUT THEY DIDNT EMAIL ME SO IM GOING TO THORW A TEMPERTANTRIUM PRETTY SOON. Just kidding, i love you western, please dont hit me... :| ~Steve Monday, April 26, 2004 time: 11:17pm Post #241 What is hell? Let me tell you: 5x500m. 1st 400 at opening 800 pace (.57 secs) then sprint all out the last 100. Oh, and you start 3 seconds behind the group and you ahve to catch them. I barfed a total of 12 times, and it burned like poison. And i had to blow my nose all night because it was stuffed with barf. I colapsed after the 3rd and 5th one. Barfed after the 1st, 3rd, and 5th. Ow. Beach was nice. Who is your god? Is it god in heaven? Is it money? Do you worship your group of friends? Maybe Yourself? Or is it your girlfriend/boyfriend....? Because if its not God in Heaven, then Satan is one happy dude, and he will use you. You become a Satan tool. Now go enjoy life. And God will take you back, if you grab his hand and let him. No strings attached. ~Steve Sunday, April 25, 2004 time: 6:23pm Post #240 A ton has happened in these past few days. Friday i played poker at matts, and that was a ton of fun. Nothing beats comming out even and seeing guys drink urine. Except maybe when you come out up, and you watch a guy speaking uncontrolable russian drink your urine. hahaha, enough said about that. Went to my meet yesterday. Sucked it up. And people yelled at me, so that was kinda bad. then i started getting emotional, and didnt have a very fun night. Alot of things kinda started pilling up and my race was kinda the breaking point. Then today i went to church, which was good, then went to lunch. Got some zippo stuff. Then on the way home marty asked me if he should hit an orange cone. Obveously i said "hella!" so he did. And his mirror broke off. Hahaha, so we had to drive back and get it. It wasnt broken, so we snapped it back on. This may not make much sense unless you have seen martys mirrors on his car. There from an RV I think. So yah, then as we passed by kamiak, we saw a sing for "great free stuff" We were goen crazy because not only was it free, but it was great free. So we got all of it. As much as martys car could hold. Then we went to mikes house and filled his car totally full with it. hahaha, owned. About 30 stuffed animals, a bunch of christmas decorations, ect. It was glorious. I should have got my camera and took pictures, but im dumb. It was sweet. Well soteria is tonight, so im pretty excited. See yah! ~Steve Thursday, April 22, 2004 time: 10:16pm Post #239 Ouch. My fealings... (quote by Jamie) ~Steve Wednesday, April 21, 2004 time: 11:21pm Post #238 Can painfull emotions be a good thing? Right now i think that they can be... Sometimes when your not feeling anything, almsot numb, when you hurt again, it feels good. They say that everyone needs a good cry, and though im not crying, my heart is. Right now i want to go back to the past. Try again, and again and again. im missing someting in my life, and i dont think its God. Im trying to look for his guidance, but i cant tell if its God im hearing or myself. Should i listen? i dont know. Logic vs emotions can be the biggest battle ever. Like what happens when your emotions change your logic? Is that meant to happen? I made a promsie tonight, and i cant keep it. I messed up, and im sorry. tomorrow is a new day, and i really hope that God slamms joy into my heart, so that i can be happy...........................................But i still feel so empty..... .. . and its not suppost to be this way, is it? ~Steve Wednesday, April 21, 2004 time: 7:40am Post #237 I was going to post last night, but i started talking to alot of people at once, so didnt have the time or brain power to. Im just going to type whatever comes to my mind. I hope i dont get myself in trouble. Sorry in advance. I woulnt say that im a lost person, more confused. I think im on the right path, but it just feels aquard. There are so many options that i have to do with my life, just like everyone else. Every choice i make has a imapct on something. People i choose to spend my time talking to, or hanging out with. Girls i like and decided to pursue or not to. Or for me a big one is looking back. Looking at my past, and feeling emotions about it. Normaly i dont concider myself a whiner, but i am more than i think. It is so easy to look back at the good times and complain becuase you dont have them right now. It's not like im going through bad times, but i have had better. Highschool is such a liner thing. You pretty much have an idea of what to expect each day. I know that today, im going to go to school, then track, then youthgroup. But after i graduate, things are going to be insaine. Im going to miss alot of things. I'm going to miss alot of people. But right now i have been spending alot of time thinking about Stephanie. There is still so much emotions involved that alot of people dont understand. Oh, and by the way, if you dont understand, please dont pass judgments. Uncool. Anyway, it's not that i still love her, or even like her romanticly, i just feel. I swell up inside and its just wierd. I had a dream about her last night. Her and I were talking infront of my house, on my driveway. I dont even remember what we were talking about, but as she was getting ready to leave, i leaned forward and kissed her. She gave me a look that spoke louder than words. Not in a good way either. She started saying "Oh no.... you cant do that, its not right, ahhhh!" and a bunch of stuff like that. I just stood there not saying anything. But then she kissed me, and then was like "...crap!" there was something wierd about the whole thing though. Its like, neither of us thought about doing it, it just happened. like a natrual reaction. Anyway, i just kind of woke up confused. A really odd dream. I have been talking to her alot more latley, which has been really good. So yah, thats been on my mind, at least right now.we shall see in a few days where my mind is rambling towards... To school!! ~Steve Monday, April 19, 2004 time: 9:53pm Post #236 School is back.... yay. I only need to survive for a few more months. School is a routine that im really sick of. Not just school itself, but i just go to track, then sit at home. today i acutay went out and did stuff, so it wasnt too bad. And i got to hang out with brit for a while, so that was alot of fun. i saw mcfarlane today, cause hes up and visiting. We bowled, and i used the 6 pounder. Its too light to knock over all the pins, so i never got a strike. I did the math, and realied that if you need to throw the 6 pounder 4 times as fast as the 12 pounder to get the same momentium. That or twice as fast, i dont remember. Either way you suck if you use a 6. anyway, i went and hung with erik, so that was cool. We should do that kinda stuff more often. It was nice and chill. Which as a senior, i feel like im needed more and more of it. Time to just relax, where there is no sounds, no multi tasking, and not much thinking. Tomorrow is going to be a really good day. I can feel it. Watch, now my leg is going to explode. Oh, litz got into western, so thats hella cool. Builds some hope for me, so im gonna sit with my fingers crossed and see what happens. Woop! ~Steve Sunday, April 18, 2004 time: 5:46pm Post #235 Pasco went really well. I ran a good sub 2 time in the 8:00, and took a shot at the the state champs. It was really fun, and i want to get in anouther race like that asap. And our DMR team wooped it up and took 4th. Broke the school recored by 9 seconds... I havent really talked taht much about my spring break, just cuase i have been realy lazy or busy. so ill talk for a while. I had the hosue to my self monday through wednesday night, and that was alot of fun. BBq alot and hung out wiht people. Had the seniors over and that was hella fun. Then yah, i already talkeda bout yg. Then took thursday off. I didnt do anything i dont think. I have had alot of time to hang out with britt and meilene, and those girls are really fun. And they got me a drink, and that was really cool. It was pretty good too. So then i went to pasco. Miners twice in one trip, so i dont need any burgers for the next week or so. As for my love life....Ick that sounds painfull. Yah, doenst sound very intresting to me as of right now. Im such a wierd emotional guy. There are alot of times where i fell i need somone to really care about, but i know that im not ready to. I just see all these couples around, and i dont know what to think. Im happy that they are happy, but it just takes so much time and emotions. and these couples are either going to get married, or break up, and breaking up scares the crap out of me. Well, best of luck i guess... Alex and i got a new nickname for the new sr pastor. Killer Ken. alex says that he eats people and takes thier powers. I wonder what he would think of that if we told him. Well i will jsut ask one of his daughters what he would do. Ill make him a nametag or soemthing. goen to sotaria tonight, so that should be cool. Well im off to do laundry and get my room ready for school. Something about having a clean room when you go to bed on a Sunday night. And i ahve a physics packet that velly ku reminded me of. Ug. YAY FOR SENIORITIS!!!!1111 ~Steve Thursday, April 15, 2004 time: 7:16pm Post #234 Wow, i need to post more, or else i will turn out like matt j. so yah, lets see. I had alot of fun while my parents were out of town. there back now, so no using the hottub without first letting me know. Flippen a. And yah, played poker. Bbqed alot of meat. and played alot of rise of nations and FFVII. I baught a zippo lighter, and its hella cool. Marty spoke at yg last night and he did well. Went to squeeze n grind with Brit and Meilene and that was pretty gangsta. oh, and your both gangsta, so stop arguing :). I got home and slept till 6:00 pm today, so im set for the night. call me if your bored. ~Steve Monday, April 12, 2004 time: 12:53am Post #233 Happy easter! good day today. Went to church, and listened to pastor longs sermon, which was nice, then went home. Hung out there all day. Shawn came over and we hung out for a while, which is cool, sense we havnt done that in a long time. Then went to sotaria, then applebees, and moncia made me feel really uncomfertable. haha, it was funny though. So yah, then i was on my way home from that, and erik called. So i went to the campsite, and that ws pretty fun. Trees fell and some dude yelled at us for starting a fire. Ty and mitch said dumb things, and kevin went all asb president on his hiney. so then i took aya home, and now here i am. I smoked me pipe twice, so im kinda lightheaded, and it was kinda odd, cause i walked kinda wobbly, and i was just imaging walking in the door, and my mom thinking i was drunk. hahaha So yah, im not going to fall asleep for a while, so im probably just going to sit her and bask in the light of my computer monitar. Pracitce tomorrow at 9:00 and that sucks, but whatev. Cool people say whatev, because it sounds like they dont care about life. And i guess that makes you cool. Goodkinget. ~Steve Saturday, April 10, 2004 time: 11:37pm Post #232 Ok, i dont think that you should be aloud to call people kid. Freaken a. or kiddo or stuff like that. especially when your younger. ok, with that out of the way, this is how my day went: Woke up, played 2 games of ron, then went and had a bbq at matts and then played 2 more games of ron, then some single player hl, then went to l grays and watched school of rock, and now im here. Easter tomorrow. see yah then!.... ~Steve Friday, April 9, 2004 time: 9:27pm Post #231 Took the day off from school today. I hope my teachers dont read this site. So yah, i think its gonna be another unexcused, but as long as i graduate, im fine. so yah, i slept in till 11 today, and did laundry, cleaned my room, and filled out my tax return form. So im gonna be getting back 70 bucks, which is nice, because it goes strait to prom. Oh, yesterdays meet. Went really well i think. I finally clocked a pretty good time in the 800. You can see my times with the "track times" link above. So yah, I have a headach, cause all i have done is watch a screen, so im gonna go lie down. later! ~Steve Wednesday, April 7, 2004 time: 10:11pm Post #230 Yah, i got kicked in the shin tonight at youthgroup, and i hurt. Like hell. Slight shinsplints + getting kicked = hell. I would have rather got hit in the nuts with a hammer. I was close to crying, but i didnt want to make any more of a sceen that i already was. So yah, thats how my night was. Easy run today, so that was cool. Got some good time to talk to britt, cause shes been sick for the past year and a half. Well im gonna go lie in bed. night! ~Steve |