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Tuesday, April 6, 2004 time: 10:45pm Post #229 Running away from pain works untill someone catches up to you. Its like running from a flash flood. Its all good while your running, but then when it catches up, it mows you over. Casie, im sorry, and i know you read this and i tried to call you, so im going to describe this on here as best as i can: I am emotional. I dont knwo what made me emotional, and i think its alot of different things. Part has to do with my relationship with steph, which i dont the least bit regret because God used that in undesribale ways. It also may be from being a senior, and going off to college, which includes being on your own completly, and leaving everything that i know. Having to go meet new people, and wondering if those people will understand me as well as my freind do now. Mike, Marty, Matt, Matt law, Alex, John, and even skates and squeeks all seem to know me pretty well. I can talk to them about anything, and it all jsut seems to make sense. When i go off the college, i dont know if i will find guys who connect well like that. I have heard too many stories about how people go off to college and crash. I dont know if im going to have the work ethic it make it though ok. I dont knwo if im going to find a church that fits me. All these things are things i have to worry about, and its comming fast. My goal has never been and still isnt to hurt you. Im not sitting in my room thinking, "hmm, how can i make this girls life worse" even though it may seem that way. So im gonna try and explane how im feeling: When steph and i broke up for the last time, it was a very painfull thing for me. I cared about her more than i can describe in words. They call that love, and i was in love. to lose someone your in love with is hell, honestly. She did not scar me, but love itself did. I have to be alot more carfull with my fealings because they can get out of hand very fast. Yocum told me that i have alot of love to give, and i dont deny it. When i saw you at johns thing, and i saw how beautifual you are, i was attracted. I was still emotional from breaking up with steph, and thats why i told you i never wanted to date you. Even after talking to you, i never wanted to call you my girlfriend. I was looking more for a little fling that would be fun. After talking to you about how i was feeling about hwo things were going, and where they were going, you told me you felt different. I wasnt ready for that, and it threw me out of wack. I then had more emotions to deal with, on top of the ones i already had. I was not ready to ask you out, and i wasnt planning on it because i strongly believe that if two people decide to become a couple, that have to have 100% fealings to one another. I didnt have that for you, and i know you didnt have it for me. We established that. I dont really know why things got skrewed up so bad, but i definalty think it was for a reason. Steph and i are able to be friends again, because my experence with you really helped me to move on. But it took time. When i see you, and talk to you, even online i still feel pain. I dont like you anymore in a romantic way, so dont worry about that. But i need time to get my emotions to leave me before i can go back to being freinds. Im scared of pain, and if i know it is somewhere, i try to avoid it. Im not running from you case, im running from the pain itself. Im not trying to make you feel crappy, even though i know that i am. We will be friends, i give you my word. But i dont want to have a friendship that hurts, and right now that is what is does. Its really hard for me to hear that you miss me, especially whent thats all your xanga has talked about for the past week. I miss you as a friend too, but my emotions are still scaring me away. I hope that helps you understand a little better on why i am the way i am. Adge asked me why i am this way, and i told ehr i had no idea. But all i know is that God will do what he wants to do, and i dont think that is for us to stay apart. He has both our best intrests in mind, and i know that he puts me through this stuff becuase i dont look to him enough. I have a nasty habit of putting girls before him, becuase my emotions can be so much stronger for girls than him. I feel bad saying that, but im trying to be honest. I was in love with stephanie, but i am not in love with God. I know what love is, i know the emotions that go with it. I know what its like to give everything you have for love, to put nothing else in front of it. I wish i felt that for God, but i dont yet. So when i put other things before God, he takes them away, untill he is number one. If i was better at keeping him number one, maybe things would turn out differently. once again, im sorry for hurting you, and that was never ever my goal. Im just scared, and i dont know what else to do. ~Steve Tuesday, April 6, 2004 time: 6:05pm Post #228 I really need to turn the page in my life. Im am so sick of school, and everything, and im totally ready to jump at college. Freaken a. Like i was sitting online talking to people, and i thought, wow, this is what i do all the time every day. I got bored, so i went and actualy cooked my own food. I was hrungry cause i barfed "hella" today at track. We made a middle distance team and did 600's. Eddie doesnt like it. TOO BAD EDDY!! SUCK IT UP! So yah. I fell on the track after my 3rd 600. I cut myself up on my hands, but i didnt care. I was so freaken dead. OH AND CHECK THIS ISH OUT! this was in the anouncments at school on monday!! word for word, right here: Several outstanding performances were turned in by members of the girls' track team at the recent meet at Shoreline Stadium. Annika Fjortoft won the 100 and 200 while running an excellent leg of the 4x200 relay. Emma George set a school record in the pole vault with a vault of 8'6. Adrienne Branca had a PR in the discus as did Mareka Miura in the javelin. Perhaps the biggest score of the day, however, was by senior captain Brittany Hart who landed a prom date following a human spell-out orchestrated by Steve Rydman with help of half the track squad on the stadium infield. To the huge sixteen foot humanoid "Prom?" inquiry the team created. Brittany blushingly nodded yes from the stands where she was recovering from her just completed 1600. Hella gangsta right there. well tonight i have bible study, and mrs schwin is outside my house getting her mail, and im gonna go. And maybe hot tub. Except that bible study starts in an hour. Yes, bloody A. ~Steve Sunday, April 4, 2004 time: 11:26pm Post #227 Sigh... ~Steve Sunday, April 4, 2004 time: 10:22pm Post #226 It is time for me to turn my life around. Im finally ready to repent. I have been living a life of sin, and i have knowen it. Its wierd, like i havent been trying to fight it. I was wondering if its more important to repent as fast as you can, or to wait untill you know its going to be genuine. Comment and tell me what you think on my other xanga page So yah, i decided to wait, because i dont like feeling fake. So now i have, and im glad i didnt die before, becuase that would suck to have to tell jesus "i didnt want to repent. I wasnt ready." So yah, please pray for me, because i want to have the joy of being a christian, and there is alot i need to work on. Sotaria was good tonight. erik didn't come, but i hope his problem fixed. If thats possible. So yah Im going to start restoring relationships im losing. Steph and casie, among others. Sorry to both of you. Im a loser. ~Steve Sunday, April 4, 2004 time: 5:19pm Post #225 Went to chuch, nothing special there, sadly. And then i went to salmon pies for ribs. Sooo much meat, it weas insaine. like if tony romas put all there ribs on a table, thats how much was there. Now im at home and my day is pretty much gone, so im debating on hot tubbing, taking a nap, or smoking. probably not smoking. Casie, no freaking out is aloud. I wish i wasnt so emotional, but i am. I dont want our friendship to be aquard, and i hope you dont either, and right now it kinda is obveously. im really sorry, i wish i was better at stuff like this. ZzzzZZzzzzZZzz..z..z.z..... ~Steve Sunday, April 4, 2004 time: 12:07am Post #224 Today was a crazy day. I went up to marysville in the morning with mike, and we bought steaks, and hella bbqed it up with matt and glassit. it was really good. Then i got a call from my mom. I got into central, so thats pretty sweet. Waiting on WWU, but central is tight. Frausto will be happy to hear. So yah, then i drove the forester back home at 6:00 with sea kayaks on it. Well i kinda ran out of gas, but i got to a gas station and my dad had to come give me a debit card, so i could get some. I had absoutly no money on me at all. Only like 30 cents change. So yah, but then i went back to matts house in his car, after talking to britt and conferming that soccer wasnt going to work, and we played poker. I left with 7 bucks cash, when i brought 4 bucks in quarters. So im happy, but im gonna give it all to offering. Good habit i think. May dad is a really good giver, but he gets a paycheck. I dont, so yah. Im pretty tired, so im gonna hed to bed now. Night! Crap, daylight savings time..... ~Steve Saturday, April 3, 2004 time: 1:27am Post #223 Yah, raise your hand if your going to be working for the aquasox this summer... oh wait, look around as mike, matt and i all raise our hands. Im so excited, cause mike and i got the jobs! woo!!! so summer is going to be wicked sweet. WEll the hottub party was a flop. Oh well, beach was cool too. And i enjoyed my day off, as any normal person would. Mei Lingy is a mind reader cause she guessed who i was going to ask to prom, but then she called me mean and i cried. Britt, go beat her up. And make me a sandwich!!! WESTSIDE!!Im so exicted for everything now, these past few days have rocked. Well mike is over and we played cs and got wooped. We suck. So now we are gonna share music and go to bed. Good night world. Oh, and soccer at the kamiak fields tomorrow at 7. Everyone must go. Free quiznos if you go, all paied for by britt. And marty found a dog, and its named something tough like "angry mike" or something like that, but i cant remember. Well its cute, and i took it for walks, so now we are searching for its owner. I kinda want to keep him though, hes something gangster. ~Steve Thursday, April 1, 2004 time: 8:33pm Post #222 Wo, big day today. Guitar was insaine with the assistant principal in the class. we had to be on time, and play hella. it was fun though. school blah blah. then i went to the track meet. I did my plan, and it went super sweet. I asked brittany Hart to Prom, using people. I had them all lie down on the field, and the coaches called her up to the stands. And then i yelled her name, and she read it, and it was tight. When i get a picture, ill definatly put it up. Im excited for prom, so it should be tight. I think were gonna go to quiznos for dinner ;). So yah, then the meet went ok. But yah, that was obveously the highlight. I did eat 6 tacos though at jack in the box. "hella" good. ~Steve Wednesday, March 31, 2004 time: 11:13pm Post #221 Holy crap, i have my idea all planned out. If your in track, and you own a camera, you need to bring it because your not going to want to miss this one. Im gonna need lots of freshman.......... oh, and i want a picture too. goodnight! ~Steve Wednesday, March 31, 2004 time: 6:04pm Post #220 hahaha, i was sitting at my comptuer, getting pissed because no one posts thier xangas, then i thought to myself, "hey, i should post mine." Well i thought it was funny. now im laughing like a group of girls with an inside joke that isnt that funny (yah, you know what im talking about). Well today was an alright day. 400's gave me a big headach, but i did well so im happy. Oh, and i know who im gonna ask to prom, and i know how im gonna do it too. wonna know who? There is a quiz Here. So yah, i had my interview today with the squa aox. Went really really well. I ahve high hopes. So i hope God is smiling at me becuase im gonna get it. And not because hes gonna laugh when i dont. And they give it to mike glassit. Wearing a clown suit. There is an ad on my buddie list of a 3d volcano, and i really want it. But im sacred. Goen to YG tonight, and it should be fun. Later crockidile. running a mile. in the nile. while on fire.....? ~Steve Tuesday, March 30, 2004 time: 9:53pm Post #219 Yesterday was a nice day. School, track, beach, sleep. Thats the way life is suppost to be. Unless your hillary, then its: summer, lake, sweedishstudmuffin12313141`52515135151%$%!#%15135, summer, lake, summer. Then today school was fine, and easy. I went to first period. Yah, insaine. I told annika that i got a tatoo on my back. She asked me waht, and i said "of acne, like lots of little red dots." she didnt think it was hot and i got disapointed. Well track today was hella gay wet. My sweatshirt weighed 27 lbs. But i didnt have to run with spady, litz, and jizzle, so i was happy. They run "hella hard" its gay. I talked to steph a bit today. her mom talked to me last night about some sewing machine. I hit myself in the head with a brick. Erik wants to come to Sotria, and thats gangster. Britt updated her xanga again. woo. So yah trevor and i talked alot during our run. about prom. Crap, im starting to panick. that means i eat hella poptarts and studder. Im falling adead, so im goen to bed. You gotta know when to hold them, when to fold them, when to walk away, and when to run. Remember that for life, cause im learning to. There is no right way to handle every situation, but each way has its own concinquencesissess. and they can be good and bad, so weigh them out. With a melon. A seasonal one. that matt owes me. For my birhtday. Jerk. SPRING!!!!! ~Steve Sunday, March 28, 2004 time: 2:24pm Post #218 Xanga is dieing. I got to peoples pages to see whats goen on, and no one updates. A few people do, and its fun to read those, but dang. Anyway, yesterday went well. had a meet, we did alright. My distance medley team won shirts. Then i cleaned my room and did laundry, and went to matt j's to play some poker. I ended up mostly watching braveheart and smoken the pipe. But i did win 3 bucks from the playing that i did do. So i baught 6 tacos this morning. Went to chuch, good sermon dad. Then went out to lunch, stopped by mikes, and now here i am. Lazy as heck. Monday is comming. Yay... ~Steve Friday, March 26, 2004 time: 10:07pm Post #217 Got an interview set up for aquasox, but im kinda dissapointed, cause im gonna have to miss part of track, and on wednesday its speed workouts. I love speed workouts, as opposted to endurance/strength. Skrew those. Anyway big meet tomorrow... not really. A big relay thing and im not even running a mile. Im running 1200m total, so im pretty happy. I think before i go to bed im gonna add soemthing to my site. Its gonna have all my pr's and results from meets this year. So yah. Played poker at casies, which was fun, but i got frustrated because people stopped paying attionton and i was dealer. So i never knew what to do or where to go cause people were "... something in quotes, cant think of anything. Beach party was a flop, no one went. The senior guys are at mikes i think, but im stayen home cause i have the meet at 8:00am tomorrow. I called steph to see how she was doing. I hope i helped her a bit, even though i did nothing. so yah, im gonna go do that thing for my page, so look for the link. see yah! ~Steve Thursday, March 25, 2004 time: 9:24pm Post #216 Track meet today went pretty well. I ran a 4:32 mile, which is a pretty good start for the year. except that the 800m was totally messed up and the starter was dumber than a sack of martys, so i was pissed. and i got a blister. Wahh. Oh well. Emily had a bad night and it made me really scared so i cried. that doenst make sense, but let it slide. Now im at home waiting for jamie and erik to come over so was can do work, and if they dont come then im goen to bed. I miss steph as a friend. Later "yall" ~Steve Wednesday, March 24, 2004 time: 10:35pm Post #215 Pool workout sucked, but it didnt. It was hard, but it went by pretty quick, so im all love about it. anyway, i got alot done today. Sent in my stuff for aquasox, and emailed the coach from central. Im excited to hear back from both. Senior year has alot of waiting. Send in crap, pay money, and wait. Woo hoo. Raise your hand if you love drama! you know the kinda where friends beat the living crap out of eachother with emotional baseball bats? Yah, i love that stuff. I live for it. every day. uh... aquard now.... i dont knwo what to say..... strange how i could have an aquard silence in a journal post. Disco abba. skates, missed yah tonight. Im gonna bring a crowbar to church so i can seperate matt and lauren. anyone want to help? running out of things to say, so i think ill just see how long i can type before having to take a break so i was at centrals website and i coulnt seem to find the email address of the coach and i got all mad and was all whiney but then i thought of jack in the box, and i got happy, cause i knew that i wanted tacos, and after youthgroup tonight i went and got 6 tacos and my sister got 2 and i blew a wistle in the car and she got all mad at me but i laughed cause she ran into that post at jack in the box with the durango and thats funny to me, cause that means shes half way to having as bad of a driving record as me and she doesnt even have her lisense. Im goen to hawaii this summer and im pretty excited, hawaii is pretty sweet, and im gonna like swim around and ride sharks. Break me off a pice of the crunch bar, plase? ~Steve Wednesday, March 24, 2004 time: 2:14pm Post #214 Lets see, yesterday i had bible study, which went really well. Except that my relationship with God sucks right now. Nathan wants me to give a talk, and i know what im gonna do. Im gonna preach like my dad would, so maybe you will see the symilaritys when i get up there. So yah, then marty and i i hung out after and "chilled." Caise, im not mad at you, honestly. I would feel really aquard walking into the choir room now, cuase yah. Anyway, time takes care of things. Matt and john suck cause that skipped bible study. Steph and i are talking again. I think God wanted me to have fealings for caise, and then not have it work out for a big reason. It helped me to move on alot better, but he knows that im not emotionaly stable enough to handle a relationship. So yah, cause i talk to step alot more now, and for me its alot easier, like yah. I can talk about anything (and sometimes the wrong things :( ) but yah, im glad, cause i really missed her as a freind, but i just wasnt able to be friends with her. Sure, we will fight about stuff, but like she said, its no big deal. Hella. So yah, sorry steph for taking so long. Swimming for track. Woop! Come to youthgroup today! ~Steve Monday, March 22, 2004 time: 10:27pm Post #213 Lookie here, im back and posting. Not much has happened except that i get a free sub from brittttt but she didnt update her xanga, so shes "gay". Sorry if that offends you that i called her "gay" (marty) Steph, im sorry, i was blind. as usual Congrats hillary, you are offically the first to figure out that when i say "wakka wakka" that i am fozzy bear. Buffalo bobbies tomorrowies. Speach too. Crap. oh well. dance team lost state. They got negitive last place. Sorry girls, better luck next year. dont kill the messenger. Kill his/her parents, more of an impact. Congrats hillary, you are offically the first to figure out that when i say "wakka wakka" that i am fozzy bear. Ryan, your profile is "hella" funny. i like cinimon life too, and i eat it every day. WITCH YOU MOMMA!!! SUCKA! Congrats hillary, you are offically the first to figure out that when i say "wakka wakka" that i am fozzy bear. I haev to run wind n tide tomorrow. I love hills. I love being tired. and i especially love that small pain the comes under my coller bone. Congrats hillary, you are offically the first to figure out that when i say "wakka wakka" that i am fozzy bear. yay Congrats hillary, you are offically the first to figure out that when i say "wakka wakka" that i am fozzy bear. ~Steve Monday, March 22, 2004 time: 5:14pm Post #212 The only difference between miles and smiles is smiles arn't gay. Freaken intervales today, and im a flippen middle distance runner running the 800. well not today. we did mile intervales, jsut like cross country. Flipppen a. Im gonna sit in my hot tub till tomorrow morning. Goodnight. Actualy ill get bored and come post again cuase i have nothing better to do. ~Steve Monday, March 22, 2004 time: 1:13pm Post #211 I realized tat i skrewed myself over with everything. I got too caught up emotionally with something that didnt even exist. But its ok, cuase it happened early, and smoothly. So casie, like i said, its not your fault. I gotta keep my eyes open about prom now, so that will be fun i guess. I'm just gonna mess with my site, then go to track, so see yah! ~Steve Sunday, March 21, 2004 time: 11:09pm Post #210 3 posts in one night, shows what i spend my time doing. Im feeling better, jut getting my stupid mind off of things, and just messing with my site. Word. goodnight. ~Steve Sunday, March 21, 2004 time: 10:09pm I havent cried sense my birthday. ~Steve Sunday, March 21, 2004 time: 10:01pm Post #209 Yah, so people are waiting for me to post something in response to Casie, and here it is: Im sad, of course. I kinda saw it comming after today, but whatever. I dont want her to listen to her friends that say she should go for it, because thats not what her heart is telling her. And yah, obvesouly she doesnt feel the same way i do, so im going to save myself the pain and probably run away or something like that. I dont hurt when i run. So yah, not much else for me to say, and im getting emotional and teary eyed, so im gonna talk about something different. Sotaria was good tonight. I cant drink expresso before a sermon of any kinda. I get all ansey and i cant sit still or concentrate. Yah, i'm goen to bed. another week is here, and its one more week closer to move on to college away from memories. Bye. ~Steve Friday, March 19, 2004 time: 6:57pm Post #208 I realized something that actualy makes me really sad, but im not going to put it on the internet, cause im not a jerk. So yah, im semi emo right now, so i need to do something, like run around and jump and stuff. Or go get "hella smashed" and listen to bloodbrothers. ill ask my mom if she wants to come too. Anyway, Senior skip day today. that was fun, except for 4th period taht i had to go take a test. so i drove to school, took the test, and drove home. It was stupy. I called the aqua sox, so i may get a summer jorb there. That would be pretty cool, as long as i dont annoy matt. anyway, casie is gone. she should come back. But shes having fun, so im glad. and im chillen at home waiting for mike to get off work so i can play more video games. Or maybe ill just play some right now. ~Steve Thursday, March 18, 2004 time: 10:22pm Post #207 Track Meet today, went really well. I was the furst guy runner, and the last, maening i was in the first event, as the lead runner, then i was in the last runner in the last event. Kinda tight. Anyway, then i went to the choir concert and saw everyone sing. a new expereance, but a fun one none the less. Then casie and i went to cold stone, but i felt bad cause i felt like some thing she had to take along, and she couldnt just hang out cause flippen steve was there. Oh well, maybe i just think too much. Or too little. Wakka wakka. Anyway, tomorrow will be intresting, so wicked. Goodnight! ~Steve Wednesday, March 17, 2004 time: 10:25pm Post #206 Good day today. Really good day. Went to all my classes on time, and did all my work. Im almost done with my speach on christmas. And yah, went to track today, and it was a nice quick speed workout! The first flippen one of the season. Cause 8 x 300 isnt a freaken speed workout. But yah, so i came home and talked to caise a bit, cleared some things up. My sister keeps calling me asking how to burn a friggen cd. I swear little woman. Anyway, i had a blast at youthgroup. I just had energy in my body than plants on marty's roof. So yah, then on my waqy home from YG, i stopped by casies hosue and said "HEY! wad up?!" then i left and talked to her on the fone and she got in trouble and now here i am on the computer! Mike, get un-grounded. Matt J, ZOLTAN! ~Steve Tuesday, March 16, 2004 time: 10:03pm Post #205 oh well. Sometimes things happen that you dont expect, but they do. And God has a purpose for everything, and im gonna once again sit back and let him do waht hes good at. He doesnt mess up, and i do, and maybe i did mess up. I think i did, but i guess there isnt much else for me to do about it. Oh well. ~Steve Tuesday, March 16, 2004 time: 9:25pm Post #204 I took today off from school cause last night i had a fevor. I jsut felt like crap. Marty came over and we smoked his "special" pipe. It was really funny, and we just chilled. Haad dinner, and went to bible study. Only him and i went, cause everyone else was doing toher stuff. So amrty and I just talked about all the illeagl stuff we have done, including me throwing mortars at cars...... yah.... jb is a cop, so that was cool. i havent talked to case yet, but im gonna give her a call. I guesss there is some barbershop thing tonight. Im goen to the choir concert on thursday after my meet, and im stoked. Time to do nothing! ~Steve Sunday, March 14, 2004 time: 2:51pm Post #203 Wow, church was like 16 hours today. It seemd to take so long, but i shouldnt be thinking that way. I jsut started to lose my concentration. Oh well, steph was there, and im doing alot better about that whole thing. God will help me be where i want to be, so im happy. After church we went out to lunch, and i called casie and kidnapped her and took her to wendys. High class stuff right there. I got her a ceaser salad, which she ended up tricking me, and payed for it her self. Curse you! Oh, and she got in trouble, but she just told her mom i was going to teach her how to smoke crack cocane, and that made everything better. Well i had alot fo fun, and night of praise is tonight,m and everyone should go cause its going to be "hella" huge. Im not sure if its ok to describe a church event as "hella" but i think i just did. ZOLTAN! ~Steve Sunday, March 14, 2004 time: 2:16am Post #202 Sweet. I won 5 bucks at not poker. 99 and woof, 5 bucks each. Then i plaed the longest game of 357 ever. And i lost, but they are still playing. I went home cause its early and im tired. I feel bad because i totally missed all of casies calls. Casie, im sorry, and im glad you had fun tonight. So yah, student leadership tomorrow morning at 9:00, so i have less than 7 hours to sleep. not too bad, but still not much. I really want some peanut butter m&m's. Good nigiet. ~Steve Saturday, March 13, 2004 time: 4:24pm Post #201 So today is saturday, and it has been a fun past few days, so thats been cool. Inca day was yesterday, but i didnt do as weel as i would have liked. they took out the yelling down the hall. so you caould only call it if you were within 5 feet. Then after school i went to track, and it was the funathon. I ran 30 laps on the track, so today im not able to run the tempo run. My legs are shot dead. so yah, then i went to bingo, and that was "hella" fun. I wona these really cool fat statues, but austin took them, which was cool, becaus it was a white elephant thing. Maybe if i hadnt celebrated so much when i got them, then no one would want them. But oh well, i got a goofy little nalgine waterbottle. Its the size of a popcan, so its kinda pointless. But yah, then we were suppost to go to applebees but it was like 10 so i called casie and cancled. i want to go right now though, cause it sounds pretty good! Anyway, i ran today and sucked, so i stopped by the PAC to see people. Casie was getting food, but came back so i walked her to the minivan of doom. Then i walked home, cause my legs are that tired. Well enjoy your weekend everyone! ~Steve Thursday, March 11, 2004 time: 6:27pm Post #200 Today wasnt a very good day. Not for any specific reason, i jsut felt like crap all day. I accedently missed weighttraining, and that sucks, becuase im getting closer to my absent limit. Oh well. Last night really threw me off pretty bad. I called casie just so i could talk about it with someone. Thanks Case. Anyway, i guess there isnt much for me to say. I talk to Kelly Baugh alot during speach, and that was pretty cool to talk to someone whos athletic plays as big of a role as mine do. Im goen out to dinner tonight with my family, so that shoudl be fun. As long as they dont ask me 100 questions about college and school, cause that stuff gets old fast. Especailly when im in a bad mood. And my parents asked if i was depressed. Flippen a. Im goen to bed when i get home from dinner, so i can wake up again tomorrow. inca inca inca ~Steve Wednesday, March 10, 2004 time: 11:00pm Post #199 Wow, tonight for me was kinda tramatizing. im not going to tell the world, but if you want to knwo waht happened, feel free to ask me. Anyway, tuesda was good, and bible study went well. Im enjoying life alot right now, for many diferent reasons. Mike and i went to buy more tobacci, and i got peaches n cream. Kinda funny, but yah. Casie is tight, and im gonna woop not only her, but all her friends at inca day friday. Track has been though, but its getting better as i loosen up and get my strength built. Mike and i have decided to bring back an old time thing. The grave yard. Like when you mix all the sodas together. So thats the new hip thing to do. Like that "rap" music. im tired and need lots of sleep, so ill talk again more in depth another time. "L8ter" (thats skater talk for "later") Sliphun won the raffle. ~Steve Monday, March 8, 2004 time: 11:09pm Post #198 Today was a good day. Made some dumb talking mistakes tonight, but i think its all good. All good like saturday school, which i dont have. But i will be up at 6:00 tomorrow so i can be at weight training. so i can go home, then go back to school for guitar. why do candles smell so good? like when you blow them out it just smells nice. Maybe its just me. Maybe its the cocane addiction that is messing with my mind. No, im not addicted. i can stop any time i want! Eggnog. I really like the song on my site right now, i just listen to it non stop, cause its so chill. I havent listend to any other music all day. Oh well. John is doing well. Dance sucks. cause 800s are hard. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAYCIE! i love you little sis! ~Steve Sunday, March 7, 2004 time: 9:49pm Post #197 Well i guess there is some confusion on Casie and i. No, we are not together, we are not a couple, and are not going out. WE are just enjoying a friendship. So anyway, Rock on. I went to Sotaria tonight... and that was pretty good. Played some TFC. Played some pi the tail on the Alf. Never fight a nazi on a pogo stick. I realized something big tonight. Im lacking major in a few parts of my life. Those parts are Love, Joy, Peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfullness, gentleness, and self-control. Yes, those are the fruits of the spirit, and i realized that i lack in alot fo those areas. You know who seems to have all these traits? Nate Hadley. Hes jsut an all around cool guy. And he is single (go for him marty). So yah, im gonna really try and boost those traits up so God will be pleased. especially gentlenss and kindness... ugg. GOODNIGHT NEVERLAND!! ~Steve Sunday, March 7, 2004 time: 2:25pm Post #196 There comes a time in every mans life where he must come home from church, and eat lunch. For me i know that it was a very important time in my life, and had a very strong impact. Not just on me, but the people around me, like my family friends, and most importantly, the bionicles. I still have to go play that game, it looks "hella" fun. Casie, i had a blast hangen out with you. Especially the kidnapping, the beach, spongebob, poker, and intrupting you on the phone.... multiple times. To all you people she was talking to that were unable to complete their mission obvective to talk to Casie, im sorry. Kinda... Actualy im not that sorry. I dont want to sound like a face jerk, but at least im honest, eh? Honest backwards is tsenoh, which would be a cool name. Im gonna name my first kid tsenoh. tesnoh danger rydman.... i like it. Kinda funny for girls, because they dont know what their childs last name is going to be. WEll, if you live in marysville and yoru pregnat, like matt jacobs, who is pregnant, then you may know its last name. Casie Eisac. 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