Tuesday, September 16, 2003 time: 8:03am Post #71
Sigh... A little Boyz II Men before a day at school... soothing...
~Steve
Monday, September 15, 2003 time: 11:23pm Post #70
Hmm.... Sometimes i dont think i can win. No matter how hard i try.
So i had a cross country meet on saturday, and it went pretty well. We won.... except for that one school thats ranked 2nd in state, and 20 somthing in the nation. So we got second, but i would like to think that we won. I dont have a single zero in any of my classes yet. This is a highschool record for me, for all of you who think that that is no big achievement. My sophmore year, when i took geometry, i had 30 some zeros each quarter... and a B. So for me to be doing all my homework in all my class every night is a big thing. Latly i have been having alot of fun talking to a buch of different people alot more. Mostly jill at school, and billary at home. It makes me sad how i dont talk to alot of people any more. It depends on how much i see them, but even if i dont see them, i should still try and talk to them. Well i reminded myself how fun it is to talk to different people, and to hear different views on life. Dating is not fun if you base your life on your girfreind. Stephanie has taught me that that can be a problem for me. Sigh, and im fealen kinda tired. On sunday, i ran 9 miles, starting from kamiak, and going down windand tide. Then i came up pinic point road, and on to bev ed. then i went to go see stephanie, but she didnt hear me ring the doorbell twice. So i said skrew it, and kept running. I then went up to the speedway, and then the BLVD. Yah, when i got home my toenail fell off. So now i have 9 nails, and it kinda hurts. I hear swimming without a toenail is feels really crappy. Well anyway, the 9 miles paid off during our workout today, so that was cool. I actuayl felt pretty good during the mile intervales.... crazy huh? I guess pinick point now has cable internet... about time. those poor guys have all been on 56k. some were even gonna get isdn.... ick. Well see yah!
~Steve
Tuesday, September 09, 2003 time: 11:00pm Post #69
Wo, this is kinda odd. Im posting at the same time as last night. Odd. Today was block sceaduling for school and i liked it. Then again, my classes were Guitar, Tech Draw, and Media Analysis. It was a good day involving no work whatso ever. I had a morning swim, and that kinda sucked cause it was flippen 6:00 in the morning and there i was swimming in a freezing pool. I got to walk home after and take a 30 minute nap. then a shower. Woo hoo. So yah, i played a lot of guitar tonight, sense i got out my guitar, and my dad restrung it for me. He taught me some cool blues stuff, so i can mess around with that. It enver hit me jsut how good my dad is at guitar, and i think its really cool. So yah, Stephanie and I are gonna hang out friday, and im really excited. Seems like so far away. Well im tired, and i have to get up early... OR NOT! i have no morning practice. I saw marty driving today. You want to see wierd. Thats it. Good night.
~Steve
Monday, September 08, 2003 time: 11:01pm Post #68
Ok, wow tis been along time sense i have posted. I guess i have been doing so much other stuff, and when im not doing stuff im just chatting on the internet or play Warcraft 3. School started.... a week ago.... wow it has been a while. Sorry guys. So yah, i like my classes. I only have 2 hard classes and those are AP Physics and Precal. The rest are all pretty easy. I have been doing all my homework and it actualy makes school alot better. Well i didnt to my precal tonight but i dont have the class tomarow cause of the block sceaduling. So yah. Im learning guitar and thats a ton of fun. Ive got 3 chords down now. D, G, A7. Yah baby. Skip skip, skip to my lou is my first test, and i bet im doing that tomarow. My parents are gonna restring my guitar for me soon, so i can practice at home, then get good, and sing songs for stephanie. Oh, speeking of her, were doen really well right now. We have a date this friday, and were gonna go to even's house to watch a movie with him and his girlfriend, so it will be kinda a double date thing. Im really excited, cause i dont get to see her alot during the week, excpet for sometimes at school. But shes always in a hurry, and we have like 1 minute to talk, and thats not enough time to really talk about anything. So yah, thats why im excited. And i like hanging out wiht evan, cause hes cool. Lets see... Cross country is going well. Last friday we had our time trial and i took second. I would give you the rest of the results, but you never know what spys from other teams could be taking in this information. But we voted on the top 10 guys and girls in the order we thought they would place. I won, so i win the prize. A free breakfast with the coaches. woo hoo! But yah. I want to hold stephanie right now. but shes kinda at home in bed asleep so that wont work. Unless my name was ryan wilson, and in that case, i would be over there right now looking in her window, waiting to catch her attention... but im no wierdo. OH! the kamika jedi knights. almost forgot. At all the football games, theres a buch of us who have lightsabers and know how to use the force, so we come together to bring balance between the starwars nerd and the football jock. So far its been a huge sucess, and i think were gonna be come an offical club. But even that is too much information. I'm gonna delete some.... ok done. Good night!
~Steve
Saturday, September 02, 2003 time: 10:20pm Post #67
I cant Win.
~Steve
Saturday, August 30, 2003 time: 10:42am Post #66
So yah, i woke uop this mroning and it feels like a good day so far. Suns out, and my rooms clean (which does make a difference) and now im just chillen at my computer, enjoying a vanilla pepsi, listing to the dip by freak nasty. yesterday was a big day for me, and my girlfriend. no details, sorry. You know whats funny? matt j and i were talking aobut my online journal and how muhc it gets me introuble. I thought it was kinda funny just how much me getting in trouble doesnt mean to me. And by typing this im probalty gonna get introuble. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :|. So anyways. Im burning splinter cell off my computer, cause i want to free up space. And now stephanie is online so im gonna talk to her for a little bit. Dance, even when no one is watching.
~Steve
Friday, August 29, 2003 time: 1:08am Post #65
Ahhh, ok, things are very well again. Moose can vouch for that one. he was there...
~Steve
Thursday, August 28, 2003 time: 2:54pm Post #64
This has been such a boring day. I barly even remember what i did. I woke up, and cleaned my room, and did laundry, and ate lunch. Now its Flippen 2:54 and its almost time for Cross country. Remind me not to waist my time on nothing. Days of summer are running out and im thowing them away like old woppers that have been in your closet for 2 and a half years.
~Steve
Wednesday, August 27, 2003 time: 3:12pm Post #63
AHHHH im so sore and tired. We ran so much at camp this week. It was only 2 nights but im so flippen tired. I had alot of fun though. Its really odd being the senior. We were watching a slide show, and i knew all these people from my feshaman year, and to think no one esle knew them. But yah, this was such an odd trip. Alot of carma went around, I dont believe in it, but it was wierd. First trevor and i found a lizard, and we put it in one of the girls tent. They count find it. So we laughed, and they slept with it. Then they found it in the morning, and we took it back. Well it ended up lost in our tent. Yah, so we lost it frot he next night. But the first night i was launing at trevor cause he tripped over a metal bbq thing, and then i got stung by a hornet. Ha. laugh it up. But yah. I spent the entire time waling around with my cape and light saber. I hit some people pretty hard, but they always knew it was comming. Anywho, im tired, and im excited for stephanie to come home tomarow. word.
~Steve
Sunday, August 24, 2003 time: 9:47pm Post #62
Some Funny Stuff right here
~Steve
Sunday, August 24, 2003 time: 3:47pm Post #61
Wow, i jsut got back from my realy race thing. Its called the porland to pacific. Its taken off the hood to coast relay, but this one is for highschoolers only. Its a 127 mile relay race. There were 12 of us total, and each of us ran a total of about 10.5 miles per person. Well a few of us ran a bit more, i ran 12, some ran 13. We had 2 legs each. I was the second leg, running at 6:45 pm then running again at 2:00 in the morning. So yah, i didnt get much sleep, but i did run with my aviator glasss on for the first leg. We spent a total of 24 hours in a van. Makes the trip to CIY seem like cake. We took second in the race, and the team that beat us flippen cheeted. your suppost to stay on the left side of the course, on like roads, but they cut a ton of corners cause there ugly. I was the only one from kamiak on my team, the rest of the guysd were all from edwood or mountlake terrace. I had alot of fun getting to know those guys more before then season, when i get to race them. Wel anyways, after the relay, we went to the MLT coaches cabin, whcih also happens to be my coaches cabin, cause there brothers. So yah, that was cool. Me and 3 other guys went out and rented mopeds. it was the most fun thing ever. we had a moped gang, and we went to the beach and rode down the shore. That was alot of fun. Then we went back to the cabin, ate, then slept for 15 hours strait baby. I used to think it wasnt possible, but i proved myself wrong. Humans can sleep for that long at a time. So the ride home went by really fast the next morning/today. So yah, i missed the softball game, but i guess we won. Our first win of the season. So yah, im just chillen here, bored and kinda tired but not enough to sleep. I miss stephanie, and i wont see her untill thursday. Wahh. Haha oh well. We talk still. Good ol technology. Oh, did you hear there making diamonds.... crazy.
~Steve
Friday, August 22, 2003 time: 12:29am Post #60
OK fealing alo better now.Had fun with stephanie after aplogizing for being stupid moron ugly face. So then shes really forgiving which is a really good thing cause i skrew up alot. So now things are cool. For all of you who are wondering what happened, ill tell you. It all started when i acted dumb. then she forgave me. THE END! hahaha. had you all fooled. fools! Anyway, so i went to her houst tonight to say good bye, because were both leaving for trips. For a week. So yah, im running and shes relaxing. Frekan a. Dang you stephanie. Im getten tired, so ill see yah all later on. Unless your some creppy pirate who lives in africa on your mom's laptop. then i probaly wont see you...
~Steve
Thursday, August 21, 2003 time: 2:01pm Post #59
Wow, i can be so dumb sometimes. I pray that God will take control of my life cause im trying to do it all by my self, and im not strong or wise enough. Blah.
~Steve
Thursday, August 21, 2003 time: 12:34am Post #58
Yah... it's sinking....
~Steve
Tuesday, August 19, 2003 time: 12:56am Post #57
A good freind once told me not to let the little things get to you. The more you think aobut it the better the advice seemes. But when it comes to actualy applying it, it becomes tricky. Tonight Stephanie and i made it offical that we are a couple. I asked her to be my girlfriend, then all my friend lit off fire works.... mostly at us. Now, although not everything went according to plan, it was a sucessful. I learned something very valueble tonight. Dont expect. My problem was not that my expectations were too high, but more along the lines of too specific. I didnt get everythign i wanted, but thats the way the ball bounces. Why didnt i get what i wanted? cause God said no. He told me tonight that he needs to be number 1 in my life, and not stephanie. It's a me issue, and i feel so bad because she takes the blame upon herself. Its funny how simple some things are. The past few days i have had have not been great. Alot of things happened that i did not enjoy. It also just so happens that i have not been spending ANY time with God, my creater, savior, and lord. I gotta sit down, and put my prioritys back in line. Last sunday i was distracted all service by stephanie. But its not ehr fault, its my fault. There are tons of couples out there in service that sit next to eachother, and still learn a valueable lesson. Ive got a little bit of work to do, but i have nothing to worry aobut, because the God of everything wants me to do it. And hes buff, and with his help, i can do anything. Pray for me sometime.
~Steve
Friday, August 15, 2003 time: 9:56pm Post #56
WOW its been so long sence i posted. Tahts because i have spent all my time worken on this freaken webpage and the dual layouts and making it so matt cant steal it again and ahh! Well, back to my life cause thats kinda what i made this page to be about. all about me. cause im selfish. Stephanie has been everythign to me. And she still is. WE have gotten really close and its so much fun. I could talk/type for hours about her, and how great she is and how happy she has made me feel. Today i gave her a rose for no real reason. Acutaly i jsut wanted to see ehr smile. Cuase i like seeing ehr smile. Ok, i dont wonna bore all of you, so ill move on. I just got back from my summer retreat with northshore. It was a ton of fun. I was an offical youthleader. I got to lead a small group of Jr. high guys.so that was cool. Imgetten tired. ill talk more about this later....
~Steve
Monday, August 04, 2003 time: 3:34pm Post #55
Word up. Just got back from work and it wasnt bad. No case of the mondays for me. Yesterday i had church in the morning, and i didnt get my free mocha which im still bitter about, but its all good. My daddy did the serman, and i liked it. Then after chruch we all went to taco bell to get some .... yup tacos. I wanst hungry so i ate napkins. After that... uhh i forgot the transistion but i remember stephanie and i went to a park to pass some time and just hang out. I love parks. Especially swings. I could ride those for like 15 minutes strait. For me thats along time to focus on one thing. Well we passed too much time, so i then had to rush stephanie home... sorry, did i say rush, i meant plod along the "speed"way. stupid construction. We dont need fixed roads.... well i was late getting back to matts, and becuase of that we were late to softball. We Won! (winning for us is not being disqualifed for falling more then 10 points behind the other team.) We only lost by 2. We were so dang close. MY favorite part of softball is batting, and i was at the bottom of the list casue i was late. No, marty was last, but hes always last. Well, i finally got up, and i got a really good hit.... strait to the pitchers glove. He didnt even move it. Oh well, i got another hit later and got to 3rd before the inning ended. maybe if i had run faster i would have gotton to 4th, or maybe even 5th base! Well, so we lost by 2, and our team mom lauren gray got us orange slices. After the game, i went home, didnt shower and then left to pick up stephanie. We hung out at my house for the first time ever. So we had fun, then we decided to walk to mattys house, to meet up with everyone. Were slow walkers. So we hung at matts for a while, then went to the drive in. I went back to get peppie cause he wanted to come. I liked the 1st movie, pirates of the north pole, but i hated the second one, leauge of retarded men and bat lady. Horrible. I fell asleep.then i woke up here in my room... i think i drove home from the drive in.... i dont remember. So then i went to work and here i am now! Wooh. So yah, all i need to say has been said. Done posting i am. Tune in next time to see steve get in a fight with stephanie and destroy. Good bye.
~Steve
Saturday, August 02, 2003 time: 2:39pm Post #54
Im fealing kinda tires today. I havent had a lot of sleep though. The guys said something at poker night at matt laws and it really bothered me, so i was put in a bad mood for the rest of the night, and im tring to get over it. I dont know.... I Made a dairy downer page on the pictures page, so make sure you all go check that out, Some good pictures courtsey of Emily Raymond for the picture CD. My fealings for Stephanie are really strong still, and there just getting strong and stronger. I get frustrated when i cant hang out whit her as much as i want to, but i prayed to God for patients... and thats what sucks... hes teaching me that now. I learned that i am a very stubborn person. I asked stephanie to help me with that and she said ok, so hopefully that will improve. Its so cool that she does that for me... well i guess its not that huge of a thing. I think im excited cause i was able to ask her to do that. So yah, sweet.
~Steve
Wednesday, July 30, 2003 time: 2:45pm Post #53
Dang, i hung out with Stephanie alot yesterday. Worke seemed to go forever yesterday, then i scootered all the way to her house on half a scooter battery. I went down wind-n-tide really fast, then i hit that really long uphill on picnic point road... it seemd to take like half an hour cause the battery was dieing. Well, i finally made it and Steph and i hung out for a while... actualy a long while... A lot of hours. We had some really good conversations, its really nice cause i can talk to her about everythign and anything. I described our relationshipliek this: It's like we don't know eachother, but we know everything about eachother... It feels like we have knowen eachother forever, but we havent. Its so cool. Everything i have always wanted in a relationship just happens to be everythign that she wants in a relationship. But you know whats funny? Were not "going out" yet. We were thinking aobut that, and its just kinda funny. Thats alright though, im in no hurry, and neither is she. Last night i saw that matt j was working on the "steves a big homo page". So this morning i spent some time to encrypt my code. Notice you can't right click on my page. Makes saving pictures harder. Then if you know how, look at the source code. Ha, good luck now. Its too bad though, cause he has almost all of it. I guess ill give you a link to the site, its actualy really funny. Beandipman_sucks. Anyway, if i change my site, now he cant follow and change his like he did. Dang him. Anyway. I didnt go to work today cause I was lazy, and i was on the fone with stephanie for a few hours, and it was fun. The way i look at it, i wont get fired from my job, cuase i go in too often. To get fired you have to take 2 weeks off and not tell anyone. But anywaym, i was thinking, earning money is great, but right now its so much more worth it to talk to stephanie then make a little money. So yah, Youthgroup tonight. Im excited, i love youthgroup. Well im gonna clean my room. See yah.
~Steve
Tuesday, July 29, 2003 time: 12:24pm Post #52
Wow, who needs sparks when you got fire works. I hung out with stephanie tonight and things went really well. I had fun, i hope she did too.... let me check.... Ok, she did. She says we talk much about anything. Perfect. Well, just to let you all know, things are good. God is good. And hes also in the center between stephanie and i. Much comfort. Much fun.
~Steve
Thursday, July 24, 2003 time: 7:31pm Post #51
Wow, this has been a good week for me. Stephanie is of ultimate coolness. I was talking to Erik Sire and he was telling me about myself. It was really intresting because i have gotten the viewpoints of many other people, but his was one i had never heard before. He was talking about how i fall hard and fast for girls. I never thought of that, but the more i think of it the more true it becomes. Well I fell Pretty hard for Stephanie and if you have been around me much latley you know it. Im not sure if she does... She must have an idea. Shes @ creation (big music concert thing) right now with some people from church. She doesnt get back untill Sunday night, so thats too bad. I still talk to her on the phone, but i havent talked to her today. Oh well, shes probaly having a blast. My parents are going outta town for a little while. Good and bad. I get money for staying home, but i have to stay home. That bites.... I got paied today too. I totaly forgot it was thursday and it was pay day. For some reason i thought it was wed all week. Dang!!! I missed the team run today.... that sucks, i slept through it. My running isnt very top notch as of now, i gotta start to pick it up. XC is only a month away, and that is way too fast... Anyway, thats my life during the summer. Bye!
~Steve
Sunday, July 20, 2003 time: 10:22pm Post #50
Wear sunscreen If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience…I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you Sing Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. Floss Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements. Stretch Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.. Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room. Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the< people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young. Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders. Respect your elders. Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out. Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85. Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth. But trust me on the sunscreen… |
~Steve
Sunday, July 20, 2003 time: 10:22pm Post #49
Ah, i only worked a half day today and that was pretty dang nice. I have spent alot of time in the past 2 days talking to Stephanie Foster. Shes a neato girl. I went running today, and that felt really good. Then i took a shower after and that felt even better. I guess this is a good time to talk aobut some CIY stories. May people were really touched by god this past week. I had so much joy jut watching people realize that God is the only thing they need in their life to be happy. Such a simple concept, but gets so hard to live out when Satan steps in with his big ugly face and puts things in our way. I spent alot of time on the trip building relationships with different people on a much more individual basis. Well im gonna be goen to the beach tonight, so ill talk to you people later. Bye!
~Steve
Saturday, July 19, 2003 time: 10:22pm Post #48
Wow, i am tired. I just spent a ton of time on my site gettign the random picture thing to work. Notice when you refreash the page, a random image is there, and it changes often. So ill be adding more picts to the cycle. I just got back from CIY. I had a blast. I went into it prepared for what was ahead, so i never had a realy "spiritual awaking" or anything like that. I came in this year prepared spiritualy. Anywho, alot of lives were really touched, and im so thankfull for that. I got a sweet jump suit with my name on it from value village, and i wore a cape all week. I didnt really meet any girls, which is good, because right now i would be missing her. Well, im tired, so im going to bed. I will talk on this soon. Oh, i guess work has been slow. Sweet, maybe ill get more time off :0. Good night!
~Steve
Saturday, July 12, 2003 time: 6:15pm Post #47
Ah, My computer is finally back at my own house. About freaken time! I just got back from a cabin with some of the guys from church. It was alot of fun, but more fun when the girls were not there. Shawn was right about that, and i think none of us realized that until it was all said and done. CIY is comming fast baby, and im excited. I also have a really bad sun burn. Not like martys though, his are bad. Matt J got a new car after his exploded. Its called the V-Day... Cause its pink and purple. Ha.
~Steve the human
Thursday, July 03, 2003 time: 7:59pm Post #46
Emotions are an odd thing. They cloud your judgment and your ability to see the big picture. But is that really a problem? It seems that the best things come from emotions. But then again, so do all the bad things. You could also say that an emotion person lives life to the fullest. That is alot more than alot fo other people can say. Normaly i try to keep my emotions under control, especialy sence thats what i tell my friends to do if there going through hard times. I guess im going through one of those now. When you think you have something figured out, you just find out that you dont. Generaly, that isnt really that big of a deal, but other times it can really hurt. Especialy when we are talking about a person. I found out about an oppinon someone has aobut me, and i say it so often, and Hillary even pointed this out to me, that i try not to care about what other people think. But honestly, there are exceptions. Parents for example. We try to impress our parents, and make ourselves feel valuble. we want to make them proud, and thats true for just about anyone. there are other examples as well. When you like someone, and you have for a while, you care about what they think of you. Im sure some would argue that "no, i dont care about anything," but thats crap. If you truly care about someone, you care about how they see you. Most people i knwo wake up in the morning, take a shower, and get ready which includes brushing your teeth, or at least looking in the mirror. Maybe i do wear too much gel. But skrew that, im not gonna change how i look for someone. Everyone including me says believe that they want a girlfriend that likes them for them. Thats what im looking for. I thought i found her, but i was wrong.I thought she understood me. I dont know, maybe i am dating too many girls. I guess dating 3 in a year is way too much. Thats crap. It is so ok to just like girls, but there are risks. Like something could happen one night at a drive in movie for example that you regret. But Matt told me its better to love and lose then never loved at all. Its ok to like girls often, as long as you dont take action. Well i messed up a few times, cause im steve the human. Its too bad that we get judged by our mistakes. Some day maybe she will find her perfect guy. God knows im not him. I like too many girls, I wear too much gel, and i guess im only intrested in relationships for the physical part.
~Steve the human